Tuesday, June 4, 2019

Get back at it! Persevere!

Again I’m all over the place. I have a new book brewing which is top secret. The hop farm is in full swing. Amazon sales are so so. And my house is a disaster. I need to reign this in.  I am much better at big projects like fertility planing and wedding planning. Those forced me to get organized.

Going through fertility treatment taught me many lessons and one was perseverance. Dr K also said don’t give up. Keep your eye on the prize. I need to apply that elsewhere.  I am sooo impatient. I get anxiety when I don’t have something right now. But going through through the process made me realize he was right. 

I’m sure many of you have been through multiple rounds. I hear some ladies have gone through double digits. For me not having biologics on both sides wasnt on the radar. I thought about it a few times but chose not to go there in my mind. We went through 6 rounds. I was on my last round of IVF that was covered by insurance. We were getting pregnant with each IVF treatment but they ended in loss. The one time I lost so much blood Dave woke me in the middle of the night to tell my body temperature was very cold. Loss is not fun. Mentally or physically. 

That last round was success. There was a lot that went into that successful round. A lot of prep. A lot of getting healthy. A lot of focus. A lot of thoughts of perseverance and believing it will be!  

I need to move that same mindset to creating a successful future for Kyle. So plan for this week is let’s get the kitchen and living room clutter sorted out. InLso need to find my next product to sell.  Can we do it?  I need to focus. 

Can't get my Sh!t together!!!

I just can't seem to get my shit together. I am so all over the place. I feel like I need to build a structure so I can get stuff done. I happened to mention this to my new therapist and she recommended bullet journaling. So I started. I'm struggling with having so much on my plate. My hormones are all over the place and I am just not getting anything done. So yes, I think adding some structure to the day will help.

After all, I did something similar while going through fertility treatment. I had a spreadsheet of all my stats, what the goals where, all the back up put together. I guess it helped me feel like I was making progress. Hmmmmmm we maybe on to something here. Right now I am having a brain fart about Pinterest. Maybe I will put some structure around that so it wont be such a monumental task. When you have so much anxiety just making something to eat seems like an impossible feat.

So here is my preliminary checklist.
* Write the blog
* Create the video
* Combine and post both
* Create canva picture
* Post to Pinterest

Is it really this simple??? Not really. I guess it is the video portion that is so overwhelming. I see some people just post raw video without editing but I guess I could do some of that. My thoughts are so disorganized right now.  I need help bringing it all in.  Do you bullet journal? Show me your pages.